Autumn is now firmly established it seems, so the rain will get heavier, and the days shorter, and the nights colder. We’re also a full month into the Vision Course; a third of our time in Guildford is complete. It’s nice to know we have another 8 weeks here, and then 6 weeks in Europe together, but the end is still clearly in sight, there’s no escaping that.
There is the occasional reminder, the innocent inquiry of ‘What are your plans after this?’, which pulls the future back into view from the part of mind I’ve been hiding it away in. And I wish I had something to say, an idea or a small inkling about where I want to be and what I should be doing. But honestly, I really have no clue. And that was one of the main reasons of coming to Guildford, aside from the learning and the community. It was to get some vision.
I guess I can’t complain that I’ve not yet found what it is I want from the course, considering how much time there is left. But it does take time to make something, whether that is a building or painting. You can’t start until you have a plan, you can’t order the materials if you don’t know what it is you’re building.
I really hope that God isn’t going to use this to teach me to be patient. I don’t know if I can stand the wait.